The last couple weeks have brought some incredibly new successes in the world of Zoe. She’s been practicing with her 2 front teeth on bits of fruit and vegetables. She’s gotten really good at picking up bite sized pieces of food and jamming them into her mouth. She’s pulling herself up using the railing of her pack & play and she loves to stand up and hold on to the edge of the couch. She even scaled the couch on Christmas Eve fully committed to getting at her toy perched on the opposite end! She’s the Princess of Peek-a-Boo, a Grand Master Sensei Clapper and a babbling Shakespeare (in baby lingo of course).
My little angel is 11 months now and I can’t believe how fast the time has gone. She’ll be a 1 year old…pretty much tomorrow…and I’m thoroughly beside myself. Have I done enough to nurture her development thus far? How exactly should I help her with her motor skills? Is she getting enough to eat? I know they’re silly questions, but the truth is that I’m guilty of watching a little too much of Wendy Williams with Zoe perched at my feet. Maybe I should read more books or buy more blocks and buckets. And why haven’t I figured out how much food to make for her… she’s never “full!” I ask myself, is my lack of know how the reason why she’s not walking yet or intentionally calling for “Mama” or cracking a rubiks cube.
In truth I’m just figuring it out as I go. With so many “don’t do” and “how to” manuals from well meaning advisers, it’s a surprise that any kid makes it past the newborn stage and that most Momma Bears even maintain partial sanity. I mean…can you say that you’ve ever done so much surveying and research via Internet, books and “advisers” that you find yourself mentally and physically immobile? Okay…well… maybe you’re more sane than I.
But my point being that my little Zo-zo is 11 months going on 12 months and the new lesson I’m learning is to trust that what I lack in mothering knowledge, mother-nature makes up in innate ability and development. I’m sure there will come a time when I think to myself “Now if only I’d taught her this when she was just 4 months old, she would be leapin’ and boundin’ all over the place.” But my hope is that a more sane Momma Mina will be just that…more sane.
Are their things in your Mothering that you’ve had to learn to let go of and entrust to Mother Nature?